Vindication: the act of upholding or justifing by argument or evidence: to vindicate a claim.
I feel vindicated now that the psychologist has ordered him to get a psychiatric referral for a borderline personality disorder diagnosis. My fears are not only in my head or a result of my own overreactions - there really is a problem. (Not that I thought I was wrong, but in the dark and loneliness of the wee hours of the morning I would begin to doubt my own convictions - coincidentally another tion word)
Full of more 'tions, and this one both speaks for itself and is full of so much I could never begin to put into words. About our future, my future, his recovery, our marriage, our communication, you name it!
Is this what we should do to our marriage?
Facilitation: to make easier or less difficult; help forward (an action, a process, etc.).
Is the simple act of me staying actually putting the final nail in the coffin, and by its very nature confirming that he will never truly escape my enabling? If I facilitate all of his negative behaviors by choosing to remain in this marriage, has hope been lost before it's even been found?
Hesitation, desperation, agitation: need I really look up the definition for you? I think these pretty much speak for themselves.
Cohabitation: to live together in an intimate relationship.
Once again, should I stay or should I go? That really is the question isn't it. Or rather, it goes one step further. Should I stay and choose to stick to my marriage vows regardless, since I chose to enter them freely and with no reservations, or should I leave with the knowledge that staying may have actually caused significant mental harm and caused both of us to stagnate in unused and unexplored potential?
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